Akhir-akhir ini anginnya kenceng banget, dari dalem rumah aja bisa kedengeran wush….wush….. kayak badai mungil. Kalo pagi2 juga dingin.
Nyesel ga ya?
February 19, 2008 at 11:35 am (working)
Hari ini, hampir sama kayak kemarin, dateng pas2an, untung masih dapet bus.
Tadi boss ku bilang, dia merasa guilty soalnya kayaknya tll sibuk n ga sempet ngobrol secara pribadi one by one ama orang2. Aduh aku jadi terharu, jadi merasa bersalah juga, soalnya waktu itu sempet ada rapat mengenai Quality Mindset, terus kita disuruh kasih pendapat n masukan, di masukan-ku aku tulis kalo kita kurang sharing ttg masalah2 yang kita hadapin bareng (hahaha…..itu sebenernya usul pribadi, mana mungkin sih ada kantor yang sifatnya fellowship kayak cell group aja), eh ternyata boss ku menanggapi serius.
Dia juga ngomong sih, harusnya aku dateng ke dia ngobrolin soal ini. Dia kasih tips, kalo ada apa2 di masa yg akan datang di tempat kerja laen, langsung dateng ke boss, ngomong. Tapi harus cari waktu yang tepat. Aku jujur aja ga berani. Seperti kayak anak SD mau ngomong ama guru ke WC aja dulu aku ga berani, makannya aku sampai sekarang frekewensi ke WC jarang gara2 yah itu…..dilatih dari dulu hehehe. Keinget kalo di rumah, org yg paling ditakutin itu papa. Kalo ga perlu ga berani ngomong. Kalo ngomong juga liat sikon, kalo moodnya lagi hepi baru ngomong (ini tips dari mama, soalnya kalo asal ngomong bisa kena marah). Perilaku yg sama, aku terapin di kantor ke boss, masalahnya kalo di rumah ada mama yang bisa dijadiin ‘tumbal’ (maksudnya penengah ke papa), kalo di kantor mana ada. Memang sih, dari dulu mana bisa terbuka ama papa, org kalo mau ngomong aja takut. Tapi makin lama jadi lumayan sih, papa suka nemenin belajar dulu pas SMA di kamar ku sambil baca koran hehehe (duh kangennya).
Pas pulang, nunggu bus di depan pintu gerbang company, ketemu boss. Dia nanya2, apa aku uda dapet tempat baru, tentunya belum, dia nanya2 kamu di bagian mananya indonesia, dia ada temen dari surabaya, punya rumah besar dan ada 6 pembantu! Wow! hahaha….dasar si boss. Hix jadi makin terharu aja, kok jadi makin baik yah dia, makin gentle ama aku.
Ada kejadian lucu juga hari ini. Mr R, yg sekarang pangkatnya lebih tinggi dari boss ku, meninggalkan buku clean roomnya deket tong sampah di tempat ganti baju. Untung aku liat, jadi aku bawain. Hahaha….dulu dia juga pernah keilangan bukunya, sampe minta bantuan para specialist di line buat cariin, hahaha….ada-ada aja. Dia sms aku, “Kamu harus dikasih ang pao lagi nih” Hohoho…..taun ini lumayan puas, dapet 4 buah kantong angpao, kemajuan dari taun sebelunnya (taon lalu dapet 3- 2 dari boss dan bossnya boss, 1 lagi dari mamanya JH). Taun ini ga dapet dari keluarga JH soalnya mereka lagi masa berduka karena kakeknya baru meninggal (menurut aturan Kong hu Cu, ga boleh ngerayain perayaan2 selama 2 tahun, jadi ga bisa kasih ang pao).
Uda ah mau maem mie kim chi, hahaha….
Travelling light
February 18, 2008 at 3:54 pm (Uncategorized)
Yup, itu judul bukunya Max Lucado yang aku uda beli sejak kapan ya….mungkin 3rd year. Dulu pas beli, sebenernya cuman penasaran aja ama si Max ini yang kok keliatannya org terkenal. Jadi mau coba2 baca bukunya. Tapi ga gitu tertarik ama topiknya sih, soalnya menurutku aneh. Terus keinget juga dulu si Darwin pernah bilang, kalo uda selse baca, dia mau pinjem. Hehehe, aku bilang ok2 aja, tapi aku ga tau kapan selesenya. Hahaha…
Dan kenyataannya sampe detik ini (kira2 3.5 taon kemudian) belon selese baca. Beberapa hari yang lalu, somehow aku inget kalo aku punya buku ini, n nampaknya menarik buat dibaca. Soalnya aku beli buku Max lainnya yg judulnya Facing the Giant, n I am about to read that one and decided to read the old one instead. N bener2 bersyukur banget ama buku ini (sekarang blon kelar juga sih bacanya). Study guidenya mantap. Bagus banget menurutku.
Detik2 menuju 28 Maret uda semakin deket, jadi makin mikir, apa keputusan ku ini salah ya. Aku semakin sadar kalo kayaknya aku ini yg bermasalah n bukan tmpt kerjanya. Di salah satu study guide Travelling Light ada pertanyaan renungan:
” Kalo kita merasa dengan pindah environment, attitude kita bisa berbeda, berarti kita belon travelling light”
Maksudnya, attitude kita ga seharusnya bergantung ama keadaan kita.
Hari ini bangun dgn perasaan cukup hepi soalnya bisa tidur nyenyak (gara2 minum obat tidur) n punya feeling lumayan. Berangkat ke kantor cukup telat, jam 7.15 dari rumah (harusnya jam 7.12 hrs uda jalan), jadinya dapet MRT yg telat, harus nunggu 7 menit (biasanya frekwensinya 4 menit). Tadinya bangun dgn kepala pusing dikit n uda kepikiran mau MC lagi hari ini, cuman dipikir2 kasian boss saya, hari ini backup saya kan off day (dia swing shift, kerja dari selasa-sabtu) kalo saya ga ada ini keterlaluan. Aku kalo mau ambil leave/MC musti liat2 dulu, mesinnya lagi banyak masalah apa ngga, ato ada OOS measurement lot yg musti di settle (OOS itu out of spec dari normal chart). Sebisa mungkin harus ga ngerepotin org laen, kalo bisa tetep pantau kerjaan dari rumah pake laptop.
Beruntung banget akhirnya tiba di MRT Marsiling jam 7.45 n shuttle bus ke company yg terakhir dtgnya jam 7.50, jadi masih bisa naik bus ke company, daripada naek public bus, turunnya di belakang company, jadi musti jalan cukup jauh dari fab 6/CSP ke fab 2, mana uda telat, harus ambil problem logsheet (kertas yg isinya alarm2 mesin hari kemaren, n gimana mereka dispose half etch productionnya), harus analisa dulu kemaren ada alarm apa aja di intranet company, terus equipment engineernya troubleshootnya gimana, ada lot OOS apa ngga, true OOS apa gara2 wrong measurement. Hahaha…tapi hari ini diberkati Tuhan (bukan berarti hari laen ngga), jadi dapet bus yg jam 7.50 (terus dgn kiasu lgs masuk ke bus rebutan, soalnya biasanya rame bgt ampe ga bisa masuk n artinya sama aja, musti pake public bus).
Sampe di kantor jam 8 pas, buru2 naek lift ke lantai 4, ambil problem logsheet di cubical tempat PAE, eh uda ga ada satupun problem logsheet (hmmm….mungkin uda diambil Mr W –> colleague dari Myanmar). Terus buru2 ke cubical-ku buat analisa intranet mesin alarm. Eh….boss ku dtg kasih ang pao, cring cring…..jadi terharu…….di meja ada amplop laen yg isinya poto pas DND December lalu, dikasih ama PAE favoritku, cring cring…..jadi makin terharu. Aduh aku keluar apa keputusan yg tepat ya?
Terus jam 8 lewat dikit, segera lari ke ruangan meeting 04-13 buat morning meeting dgn equipment ngebahas alarm2 itu. Pas di dalem, ooo…..ada Mr J, my backup. Hm….dia kan harusnya off day, knp dateng, jadi kasian banget ama dia. Terus thx God banget, hari ini ga ada alarm! Wow! padahal hari Jumatnya banyak loh.
Yah abis meeting pagi, terus follow up loh action itemnya. Ada lot yg musti dinaikin prioritynya karena buat qualification L20 etch yang menimbulkan huru hara di kantor itu. terus sama aja di L20 FI ketemu oxide stain di pinggir, yang harus di follow up.
Mana ada audit 8D tentang PCONT bell jar yang retak itu. Harusnya ini under equipment, dasar aku emang suka diperdaya ama equipment engineer. Ngobrol2 ama Mr J, kenapa dia masuk hari ini. Ms CG yg harusnya off juga dtg hari ini. Aku bingung, kok org2 bisa dedikasi banget ya, kalo aku sebisa mungkin ga mau ke kantor, hahaha……Akhirnya Ms CG bantuin follow up masalahnya Mr W yg ternyata ambil urgent leave hari ini.
Hua……tadinya pulang kantor mau lari jogging, akhirnya ga jadi soalnya uda gelap. Makan dumpling 4 dolar (dapet 8 biji) beli di bawah (orgnya ga bisa inggris). Ga ada karbo, mengingat harus jaga berat demi kesehatan. Tapi kalah juga, beli es krim di mini market, soalnya pengen makan es krim Tiramisu rasa kopi gitu. Huaa….ntn Heroes, cuci baju, jemur baju, cuci rambut…..n sekarang saatnya bobo……..
Be Thankful!
February 16, 2008 at 10:52 pm (Uncategorized)
I felt very ashame of myself after reading one of my friend’s blog. How she’s always thankful in every word she wrote. Not like my blog, it’s always full of complaining and complaining. I am actually put my nickname in the MSN ‘every day-give thanks’, but honestly I can’t. I put that, so it will remind me to give thanks, but I can’t. I always think negatively about everything related to my work. Why I am so childish? My life is full of worried. How to be surrender? This is the main issue that I think my God wants me to learn, but until now I still can’t. Once a while yes, but can’t most of the time. Is it a wrong decission to quit the job? Is it considering I am running from the circumstances? It’s already 1.5 years, yet still I am the same person that worried, fear every single day in my life.
What am I doing today this early morning on Sunday? I woke up because of a call from office! And started to get worried for what is happening in the office on last Friday since I was not coming. I felt really guilty. If I felt I am very stressed, I will take a day leave, an urgent leave. Isn’t it same as running from reality and not face it? I really pity my backup colleague who’s suffered because of me. How can I face reality and be a grown up? I felt that I can’t accept the reality that grown ups must work and accept responsibilities. I want to be in my safe inner shell. Safe from people scoldings, people expectations. I don’t want to go out, I am scared, I felt that I can’t adjust. But is it the right choice? O Lord…help me to understand what’s this meaning of life, to learn how to live according to Your will. Hopefully my taking break back in Indonesia will refresh me and give me new opportunity to try baravely something else to explore what God has planned for me in my life.
Selamat hari kasih sayang!
February 16, 2008 at 6:44 am (Uncategorized)
Pas tgl 14 feb, the-day, gw ambil leave 1 day. Bukan buat ngerayain valentine, tapi buat ngurus perpanjang paspor di kedutaan KBRI n check up ke dokter. Tadinya mau ambil half day, tapi sayangnya doctor appointmentnya jam 4 sore n KBRI cuman mau terima perpanjang paspornya dari jam 9-12 siang. Jadi terpaksa ambil full day leave.
Tadinya uda cari2 jalan terdekat dari bus stop ke KBRI, yaitu Outram Park, naek dr bus stop yg sejajar ama shuttle bus ke SGH, naek nomer 75 n berhenti di B05 Grange Road. Unfortunatelly, gw kelewatan tmpt berhentinya. Jadilah jalan lebih jauh dari biasanya.
Terus pas di sana lumayan panik ngisi2 formnya, ternyata selain butuh potokopi akte lahir n ic, butuh juga potokopi 2 halaman pertama dan halaman terakhir paspor. Untung bawa. Terus masa orgnya ga terima potokopi akte lahir yg inggris, maunya yg indo, untung bawa juga. Tapi gw salah di bagian potonya, ini gara2 koko gua yang dgn pede nyetakin poto terus bilang bisa dipake buat bikin paspor karena glossy. Jadi harus buru2 ke Orchard Tower naek bus 111/132 terus balik lagi ke embassy, naek bus yg sama. hari itu gua pake sendal yang akhirnya melukai kaki gua hiks……(soalnya banyak jalan). Ini jalan dari embassy, asri banget n peacefull, (ada nama jalannya biar inget: Chatsworth road)
Abis itu ke Orchard, janjian buat lunch ama JH, senangnya ternyata JH ambil half day juga. Kita makan di Ichiban Boshi (jadi inget dulu kencan kita di ichiban Boshi di Esplanade, guanya bete2 waktu itu hahaha). Kali ini hepi tentunya, kita pesen meal gitu, wah banyak banget side dishnya, senang!
Lalu ke HMV bentar, menggunakan vouchernya si JH yg bisa diredeem 25 dlr, tadinya dikasih ke gua, tapi gua ga tau mau beli apa. Kalo gua beli VCD pilm pasti dimarahin, akhirnya dia sendiri yg pake beli cd klasik.
Terus ke SGH, lumayan hepi sih, soalnya tnyata gpp cuman disuruh olah raga lari tiap ari!!!!! Huhuhu ga tau nih gimana ya, gua kan plg ga suka OR. terus ke SKS, dan menemui study bible yg hari Senin gua beli di Tecman seharga almost 80 dlr (79.90), di SKS cuman 54 dolar bayangin! Jangan beli alkitab di Tecman deh. masa bisa beda banyak bgt ampir 50 persen.
Terus ke NTU buat KTB, n guess what? Anak2 KTB memberikan paket valentine, huaaaaa…..terharuu…….
Hari Jumatnya, gua pagi2 dapet mimpi buruk, terus kepala pusing2, jadi memutuskan buat ambil leave lagi. moodnya beneran ga baik, bener uda menunggu saat2 keluar….cepetan donk…. Tapi kadang2 takut juga, soalnya abis ini masih ga tau mau ngapain n mau ke mana. Terus sll mikir lah, ini keputusan yg bener ga sih, soalnya jujur team gua orgnya superrrrr baik, cuman nature kerjanya yg ga tahan, n tekenan stress/mentalnya.
My cubical……..berantakan yaaa……penuh file (musti mulai packing). I will miss the place, the people ….
Greek Masterpiece
February 11, 2008 at 5:55 am (Uncategorized)
Some photos while I was going to National Museum to see the Greek statue, I stood beside the Alexander the Great.
Using some traditional Greek clothes named Chiton and Peplos
EC
February 11, 2008 at 3:03 am (Uncategorized)
After the service, for the 1st time I had lunch fellowship with the EC people. I was in the same table with this one guy who has a voice like Don Moen, hahaha….and most of the time, he was the one who led the worship. And actually I just knew that he is a teacher. I have a thought to become a teacher as well, since I want to change field (no longer engineering). But after I heard his story with the kids, wow it is a challenging job indeed. There are a lot of kids which is rebbellious. you need to have extra patience and compassion to them. Do I have it? Hmmm….I don’t think so.
I always feel that I am too coward. I feel that I am a looser and a failure, I always think that I can’t do anything right. Am I able?
What are the things that I can do well? i can’t think of any. That’s why I am thinking of doing admin job instead.
CNY
February 9, 2008 at 5:00 pm (Uncategorized)
6th evening
That day, my boss allowed us to came back earlier than usual, at 2 pm, the office was really quiet, not like usual, full of phone ringing. Unfortunatelly I got something to do, so I went back at 4 pm and decided to come back the next day.
Have a dinner with my brother with NUS canteen food $3, he tapao the food from afternoon. We hang out at my living room watching “Wait till you older” by Andy Lau, then he went home. I felt very lonely that night, so I asked my parents to call me. We chatted, then I slept.
7th (1st day of CNY)
I went to office early in the morning (I went even earlier) to finish my stuff early. Finished at 11.30 am and decided to go for my friend’s invitation for lunch. I arrived there at 12, and no other guests there. I helped them preparing the food. We ate chicken noodle (Indonesian style of course), with lots of side dishes (spring roll with bee hoon inside, fried bread roll with ham and cheese inside). We brought our turkey as well. They were very excited to cut it using fork and knive, just like in the TV. And the rest using hands. In the end, they can’t finish it so we brought back home again (sigh!). I do not know what to do with that left over turkey.
At 2.30pm I took off from there (they have not finished yet, they started eating at around 2 pm), I met my ta tjie from church hehehe at east coast. We could not believe it that the beach was so crowded. Even you can’t go in to the seven eleven. The shop keeper must limit the person inside the store, so there was a girl stand near the door to guard the door (to allow people in and out). Can you believe this? It’s just like the Gucci sale at Paragon.
We tried to find a quiet place for sharing, but it’s very difficult. So many people camped and playing at the beach. In the end we found a spot to sit down and talk. We talked a lot. She’s such a nice ta tjie, she really listened to me and interested to hear things about me! This is the 1st time I felt being heard after quite long time (I think since high school from my old best friend, I miss you!). We shared a lot of things, specially about my struggle and plan for future together with JH. We talked until it was 8pm, then we found a place to have dinner (BK) and continue again until 10pm! Wow!
8th (2nd day of CNY)
I woke up quite late, trying to read books, but couldn’t be so concentrate. Listening to Korean Music, arrange my Friendster and Facebook. Cooking Tom Yam soup for lunch to finish prawns I got from the BBQ on last Sunday. Then chit chat with flatmate, have a nap, planning to watch 27 Dresses, but cancelled due to we all slept, hahaha…. Cooking again for dinner, aglio olio with prawns (again!) I finished all the prawns already! I dunno how much cholestrol I will get from the prawns. Read some books, then found interesting Jap drama, HANA KIMI, watched for 2 episodes then slept.
9th (Saturday)
Woke up, made coffee, read book and went to the museum for the Greek Exhibition “Louvre”. Spend quite some time there, from 1pm until around 5 pm! trying Greek clothes (I will post the photo later on).
Went for dinner, invited by Grace church cell group. All are families there, they brought their small kids with them. At first they talked to me, but think, we out of topics, so I decided to join the kids watching ICE AGE 2 (I already watched it before with Yoli from M1), while the others continue chit chat. Sigh…..I think I am more on the kid side. Maybe JH right, I am childish and not mature yet………..
But very glad for the people I met there, they are very caring, I was really touched. And found that the pastor was also a process engineer last time! So I can chat well. Just think that the guys are more friendly than the ladies, they were busy with their own business. Will I be able to click with them? Am I to quiet?
Sarah Chang concert
February 2, 2008 at 4:14 am (Uncategorized)
Yesterday was Sarah Chang concert, so I went back early to get change and prepared for the concert. I wore a new dress I bought last time from Madam Mouiselle in harborfront.
I was a bit sick yesterday, had headache, so I did not really enjoy the concert. Sarah Chang only played for the 2nd half. She’s not slim as I imagine, she’s a bit plum and ‘bongsor’ hahaha…. She wore a nice maroon dress with black laces which makes her slimmer. Somehow I felt that she looks like me hehehe….
We tried to take her picture after the concert ends, so many people queueing for her autographs and took her picture.
Sushi Tei
February 2, 2008 at 4:05 am (Uncategorized)
The other day, JH became so nice since he had his bonus. So we went out and eat in another Jap food restaurant: Sushi Tei.
We tried their Hokkaido Fair. We order a very nice cawan mushi, with real crab, for 2 person!
Then we also ordered a Hairy crab!!!!! You see the picture, the crab is really hairy! But the “capit” is very small, not the fat one. The meat taste is very unique, they don’t put any seasonings, but it taste different!
Next we order the seafood roll with cheese, it came out not too nice since too much cheese, make you want to throw out.
Poor of my next dishes, delicous salmon belly, salmon meat and salmon roe, all tasted not too nice after you ate that seafood roll. But overall is very nice!
